wow a whole month i've gone without updating this.... i place some of the blame on the fact that i've been grounded from the comp. soooo that's one of the reasons, the other is that it takes too much time/work to update my story. it's weird b/c i used to depend on this site in order to use writing as an outlet but... i don't anymore. writing is just kinda being second from music right now. (i'm trying out to be dm but.... i kno i'm not gonna get it. i'll try anyways and give the seniors a run for their money) anyways what i'm trying to say is that in a way ...i've grown up. i hate to say it but i actually turned off an avatar episode- i kno shocker right? and now that all of this stuff is keeping me busy, i'm having less and less time to be able to dream and wonder about things. passion is slipping away and ...yeah it sucks but i guess we all have to be turned into mindless zombies one day. but conforming to society has actually made me happi-er. i miss the old obsessions and i miss the excitement but i'm not dramatizing everything. i think maybe life is better when you're expectations are lower. i'm thinking...maybe the love you see in movies and in books really isn't out there. i'm tired of telling myself that i have to be patient. it's time to become one of the crowd instead of fighting the oncoming torrent of everythingiswrongandi'mright.
(to make you feel better, i'm not conforming to the sucky music. that i, can at least, be a snob about.

hmmm wow what an emo chapter.... except i'm not feeling emo at all. just ... a little regret and mostly hunger. lol i'm gonna go eat and then maybe i won't be a mindless zombie if i actually dare to eat the brains.

hahaha- IRRRVVINNNNNNNGGGGGG OUT!